Dir en Grey, Karia, Computer, Everything Else!

LIKE OOOOOMG!!!! I'm still freaking out from last night. May it rest that February 23rd 2007 was the best day of my entire life!!! First off, Ashley and I went to the Dir en Grey concert. The place was PACKED with all sorts of crazy looking people, but basically it was amazing! At around 9:30pm 居 (Kyo) came out on stage and started singing, it was the greatest thing I've ever seen!! They played about 10 songs or so from their new CD- The Marrow of a Bone. During the last song (Clever Sleazoid, one of like 3 songs I actually knew lol) 馨 (Kaoru) Threw his pick out on stage (he actually threw a couple out that he had used) and it flew on the floor next to me. I quickly ran down and grabbed it. The guy next to us got the drumstick as well, it was amazing! Afterward I bought a shirt and Ashley and I waited outside. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen, and life-changing for certain! Man it was awesome. Today however was pretty boring, I got up around 12 pretty tired. Then I washed the dishes and sat around online. Mom went out with a friend, and I've just been sitting here all night watching Macbook commercials online, *sigh* I need a new computer badly, but I'll sure miss this one... we sure had some amazing memories... My first rejection, all those years of pain, my first girlfriend, breaking up, losing my dad, fights, happiness, everything in my life of value has happened at this keyboard and screen of which I'm typing from at this very moment. I can truly say that this computer is a part of my history. It was given to me by my dad, and I've cried and laughed a million times on this computer, and I'm sure that I will many more times before I am done with it. I've done thousands of homework assignments, and worked on it till midnight and beyond, taken it to school, downloaded thousands of files, billions of IMs, everything that you could imagine. It was changing just moving it from the extra room to the dining room where it is now, I still cannot believe that maybe as short as 3 or 4 months, it could be gone. I'll miss it for sure, and hold on to it. Even now, as happy as I am I still am writing it all down on this computer.
I also have been listening to Dir en Grey nonstop all day :)

Oh... but... there was something bad that did happen today. I wanted to try calling Karia, and when I did... she was with her... boyfriend... *sigh* I miss those days before, but I'm sure that they're all just hardly a faint memory to her, if that. I took some meds and I've been feeling a little bit better thankfully.

Also, that guy, who I can now say his name- Matt has finally convinced that stupid slut Jessie to ditch David for him. It's disgusting and it sickens me. It's so disgusting I want to tear them both to shreds right at this moment. How can such filth exist in this world?? I wish karma would come to her, and may she get what she deserves!

-JA

A good day... but not really

Well... Once again I have neglected my duties as a blogger poster. It is around midnight right now, as the posted time will suggest... Anyway, I've been at nothing but Ash Wednesday stuff at school, school itself, track, and homework, geez what a day. Life has been chaotic and filled with bad grades and failures, I guess that I'm not getting discouraged though, is that a good sign? Geez, I wish I had some readers, then I could ask them, ha, that's impossible though, no one will read these blogs. Anyway, as I was saying, I've managed to keep my life sane with my good grade in History (looks like the best grade out there with 89% wow...) and Ashley. I guess that love doesn't make things better, it just numbs your problems away, and I'm greatful. I'm glad that I was also able to fix that religion project I had due, I'm still working on that, and fortunately he let me redo it with enough time. I suppose I'll be up later, and writing this isn't saving me any sleep time, oh well! But ya, overall life has been falling apart, filled with bad stuff, and problems, but I'm just staying happy I guess.

-JA

2 Days Break, Nothing Short of Adventure!

Well... it has been a couple of days since my last post, and a lot has happened to say the least, lots of ups and downs. Well let's see, I guess I should start out with Friday night. After another exciting day at school, I made my way over to Ashley's house, and we went out on another date. I took her out to see "Hannibal Rising", pretty good, and worth the time. I wore out my new coat from the closet, and she liked it a lot, I should wear it out more often. She gave my a Valentine's Day gift, a Shaman King poster, and a Carnation flower. I put the flower in water as soon as I got home, and I have the poster sitting next to me, ready to hang up somewhere in my room as soon as I get the time to do it. Anyway, Saturday... I got up, and didn't really feel like taking a shower, so I kinda messed with my hair and let it go. I really don't remember anything too exciting happening yesterday, I got some homework done, and that is about all :). Sunday (today), got up went online, sat around and took a shower. We sat around for a while and didn't do too much, then mom decided to go out and look for a new tutor for chemistry since obviously I am incapable of passing chemistry without someone (which I can't disagree on sadly), however driving into Westwood only proved unsuccessful, and it just resulted in a good fun driving lesson over the hills. Mom drove back and we went to Sperling's, the nursery far away. I passed by the exit for Jessie's house, and I shuddered. God, that still makes me sick, all those times... Anyway, we went to the nursery, oh right, I also found this crazy seed thing while at Westwood, and we took it there to be examined, it seems it is some sort of fruit from an African "Sausage Tree" scientific name: Kigelia Pinnata. But as I was saying, we got a little of the free food that they always pass out there, and bought a few flowers, then left. By the time we got home, we just sat around until it was time to go over to J&J's for dinner. While we were there we got to see the new baby Finn, and talked to Ian for a while. I talked to Kathy about her experiences in Japan, because she lived there for 4 years or so. I found out the name of one school she recommended called "Temple University" it seems a bit small, but I'll talk to her more about it. Afterward I came home and talked to Jennifer, we got into a fight and I blocked her, I feel bad though. I just said some things that are better left unsaid for now, just consider yourself lucky for not knowing, I'd rather not know myself, but I'll have to deal with it later, and I feel awful for fighting with her, and I wish I could do something about it right now. So, tomorrow Ashley and I are supposted to see each other, and mom mentioned the beach, hum, I don't know, sounds a little exciting, eh?

-JA

You know what? The world is messed up!

OK! I think I have had more than enough to do with... well... EVERYBODY! Honestly, there are these people, and they walk around saying "Oh don't stereotype me, don't stereotype me, I'm an individual, I am respectable, I am different" NO YOU'RE NOT!!! Everyone! I don't care what you say, you're all the same as your friends! I can't even log into myspace without seeing the worst of it, I'm seeing people taking pictures of themselves with a Canon Powershot, and it's in black and white flashing in color with some gay name they made up. It is so annoying. I hate those tiny icons that people put in their background too, I mean seriously, a background is one gigantic image, not 50 annoying images, if I dont want to see the first one, what makes you think I want to see the other 49 ones??? Ok, Venice beach, it really pisses me off. Everyone is walking around eating beach food, and sitting there with no shirt on. It pisses me off, oh so much! I cannot stand the beach, it is hot, annoying, sweaty, cold water, sandy feet, huge lines, crappy food, and everyone walking around trying to act important. Hell, let's extend it to all of Los Angeles, no the entire United States, and dare I say the entire planet?? You know the extent of nationalism in a country, when you put dow nother countries for your own, that is pretty messed up people! I'm tired of you saying how America is the best, you know what? Maybe it's not the best! Maybe America sucks! Our leaders suck, our banks suck (yes you American Express) Our immigration control sucks! ok face it AMERICA SUCKS! AND SO DOES EVERYONE WHO RUNS IT! God I wish we were socialists, that way the government could arrest me for speaking out against them, and I could get shot, and not have to put up with all this junk! I'm tired of getting on the bus and seeing more Spanish than English, it's America! not Mexico! I don't want to listen to Spanish anymore, because I don't understand it, I want to listen to English, in my own house!




ok... well i just talked to someone, and i found out that this is not really "hate" as im making it sound like, thjikjoij you know what, the wor is "superficiality", it means that everyone sucks basically. everyone just lies and thinks that they are cool and original and stuff, but they're not at all, and really they're getting their ideas from somewhere, and the result is just crap, i really want everyone to just burn in a little hole, and I wnat no traces of society to be left. everything is just taken over by stupidness, and no one seems to even get it, jesus..... screw all this

-JA

Valentines Day, Chemistry, and Bleach

Happy Valentines Day!
Well fortunately I decided to survive, peace has returned to the land! I am glad to report that my problems have been subsided, and everything has been taken care of, I am glad of this. I went over to Ashley's house, and gave her my present, I drew her a painting of calligraphy saying "I love you" she seemed pleased with it. But the bad part was the Chemistry homework, which I still cannot figure out, eh, oh well, I'll figure it out sooner or later, hopefully before the test coming up. Anyway, I found out today one of my classmates in English happens to love "Bleach" so I have been placed in charge of finding him something to watch, courtesy of youtube of course ^_^. Well, I guess I'll be off to bed, I am sure tired lol.

-JA

It has been a chaotic last 2 days. I have just been really confused, I don't really have any idea what to do. I feel like just... god I don't even know what I want to do really... There's just so many complications... I can't even write their names, I can't bear to look at them. I wish I had a resolution, I wish I could figure things out, I wish that I weren't fighting with so many people... I just wish... I wish that I could find a way to resolve my problems, someone would show me the right way... but it is probably impossible, there is too much now. Nothing can help out right now, it's impossible, there are too many complications. I can't help anyone, and no one can help. God what the hell... all I am is just some whiny bitch... I hate this, I hate who I am, I hate what I look like, I hate everyone I know, I just wish... everyone, or I would just die, everybody, die. I don't want to live, I'm sick of this life. It is a waste, I'd rather be killed right now, than live another minute on this earth...

It has been a chaotic last 2 days. I have just been really confused, I don't really have any idea what to do. I feel like just... god I don't even know what I want to do really... There's just so many complications... I can't even write their names, I can't bear to look at them. I wish I had a resolution, I wish I could figure things out, I wish that I weren't fighting with so many people... I just wish... I wish that I could find a way to resolve my problems, someone would show me the right way... but it is probably impossible, there is too much now. Nothing can help out right now, it's impossible, there are too many complications. I can't help anyone, and no one can help. God what the hell... all I am is just some whiny bitch... I hate this, I hate who I am, I hate what I look like, I hate everyone I know, I just wish... everyone, or I would just die, everybody, die. I don't want to live, I'm sick of this life. It is a waste, I'd rather be killed right now, than live another minute on this earth...

Had better days.

Well... school tomorrow, eh sure ain't excited about that one. Pretty boring day today also, got up around 11, didn't have any breakfast or anything fun like that. Talked to Azure for a long time, a couple of hours or so, then called Ashley, she's working on the cover for her series, it looks exciting, I can't wait to read it, no sarcasm. Got the Math and History homework done just now, not too bad, test is coming up soon though, better study, and I need to find batteries for my calculator. Need 4x AAAs. Reinstalled Limewire to find the Tekken II song by Sex Machineguns, no luck with that, I'll talk to John tomorrow for it. Went to Joe/Julie's house too for dinner, always fun, had boar. Also fixed the problem with the Dir en Grey tickets, that's all sorted out, we'll pick them up on the 23rd at the office. Also looked online for a trench coat, I later found out that mom had one the whole time xD. lol. Eh, I guess the day was actually pretty eventful afterall, woo! Can't wait for school, pssh.

-JA

A bounceback?

Well, good news, bad news, eh no real news at all. I managed to get things straightened out with Ashley with minimal problems. She got a little mad, but I think in the end we got things worked out for the best, and we're both happy now. she said I need to work on my voice and things, she says I need more emotion in it, I can't disagree with that. Anyway, mom has been giving me more problems with SAT junk and stuff, she's now convinced that I'm going to practically fail at life, and who knows what the future will really be like. The whole day was pretty much "blame jon for some random event day" wel thank the god(s) it's almost over, I should be off to sleep sooner or later, hmm it's after midnight now, so I guess technically it is over. Got into a fight with Karina, actually no, it wasn't a fight really, I just blocked her because she pissed me off, called me bad looking, eh I know I'm no hot guy, but still :/. Yup but as I was saying, the day was up and down up and down, I liked it though, it was pretty good. I also got onto youtube and finally got a chance to watch those videos that I read about in Time about people of the year, this girl "Lonelygirl15" was on it, and let me tell you, geez was it a big waste of time or what. I hated it, I couldn't even stand to watch more then, oh 20, a good 40 minutes wasted >_< thanks a lot lonelygirl15, you just wasted 40 freakin' minutes of my time! Yup, that's all really, ummm any homework this weekend? Looks like a little Math homework, online a chapter and stuff, shouldn't be too bad. Hmm, an odd day (days go by even and odd, they're numbered/lettered by a, b, c, d, e, f, g, and h. that's another story though xD). Oh and the science faire is at 7pm too! woo I'm sure excited. the periods are 1,3,5,7, that means umm... math, art, history, and english, woo sorta :/. I guess that I'm getting tired, hmm... maybe I should promote these blogs out to people, if lonelygirl can make a life out of blogs, maybe I can too! lol

-JA

I found out that Ashley tried drugs. God... I can't believe this... Her, of all people, I would think wouldn't do something like this, I don't know what I should even do. Damnit... I just... can't believe it, why? WHY!? I hate this, why does she have to do this??

Meet new friends

Hmm... well I just got home and figured I'd write a blog. Another boring day, *sighs* too bad that I didn't pick up on this whole "blog writing" thing until now, readers sure missed some good potential articles, for those who read, you'll just have to endure my boring articles. Anyway we had an interesting discussion in history about a woman named... *searches for book* Margaret Sanger. Apparentally she invented the original birth control <_<;;. hehe well anyway this guy at school- Brett has gotten all woried because of an "incident" that happened a couple of months ago, and now he is afraid it will get out all over school. I guess I don't blame him, but I just think things should happen as they happen. Who cares if people think we're gay or not, I sure don't! Well as I mentioned yesterday I didn't do my homework, and now i must suffer and do it tongith! grr... But I was also sort of annoyed because my club at school, NHK-Dan's (Nihon Kansha Dan- Japanese Appreciation Brigade) notice was taken off of the morning announcments, we're in the process of looking for band members.
I was just sitting on aim when I realized that I could talk about something people might actually want to read about. This girl that I know, named Karen has been iming me lately. I'm not quite sure of how we met, but we've been talking for a couple of months, and it only looks as though things have gone downhill with her. We used to be such great friends, and now I can't possibly understand what happened. She seems so reclusive and distant from me, I cannot help but feel neglagent from how she feels, It doesn't feel right at all. But as long as I'm on the subject of introducing new characters into my life, I might as wlell introduce Hannah. She too has been a good friend of mine, however ever since seh started smoking pot, she has only beome more and distant as well, she says that she has stopped, but I can't help but feel suspicious of her. Things feel wrong now, she used to be so nice and so happy, but now she has made me feel so bad, I feel responsible, and I know that I am not related to her much, but I just wish I could help, eh... I guess that's all.

-JA

First Entry, Last?

Hello...

I'm not quite certain what to write here. I guess I should start out with something in the way of an introduction. Well... my name is Jon, but everyone calls me JA, my initials. I live in the valley near Los Angeles, CA. I've never really written much in the way of a blog, I like writing, and I like people to read what I write. I'm half Japanese, on my dad's side, and half Swedish on my mom's side. I guess I'll just mention what happened today...
I guess today was a pretty normal day, boring, casual, whatever. I woke up at the usual time of 6:20 am and got ready for school. I skipped breakfast, a rarity for me to do, and went off. I arrived a few minutes early and talked to a couple of friends. From there I went to my first class, period 4, Honors Latin III. After not only doing the wrong homework assignment, not paying attention, and not doing the late assignment for the class I managed to escape. Period 6 was next, Social Problems & Justice. I turned in the late assignment, and we watched a film on something... I can't remember, so it must have been pretty bad :/. During lunch I ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. While I was sitting down, a guy nearby clled me gay, because of a supposed incident from a while ago, I guess if things get popular enough I'll explain that later.
Ahh! Hmm.... well I was discovered online! Well, I suppose I can understand her reasoning, afterall it is almost 1am and I have to be up in a couple of hours, grr... stupid school! Hopeuflly I'll remember how to get back so I can finish this ^_^

-JA